I can trace my Panic Disorder to when I was about 3 or 4 years old. I was in the back seat of the car with my mom and one of my sisters, and all of a sudden I was just overcome-overwhelmed, actually-with a feeling of fear. My body started shaking, I couldn’t catch my breath, and I had a feeling something awful was going to happen. I told my mother that she needed to slow down, that she was going to fast! I am not sure why that even came out of my mouth. My mom assured me that we were not travelling over the speed limit-in fact, at that point we were at a stop sign. I can’t remember a lot of what happened next, just having this feeling of fear that would not dissipate.Coupled with this were two sensations-being frozen, like I was unable to move, as well as feeling split from my body-as if somehow I was not really there, while at the same time seeing myself as a separate entity. However the scariest thing may have been the fact my heart was racing and just would not slow down.
Does anyone else remember their first panic attack? Please leave a comment if yours was similar, or even completely different. Lets talk about it!